Losing touch with reality
Guilt burns in my stomach
Anxiety racks my bones
Fear runs through my veins
Confusion chaos races in my
brain
Fighting for control of
myself
Sometimes it feels like too
much
It encompasses me
Enveloping me completely
I can’t see the way out
Just keep telling myself
It can’t last forever
Just hold onto what’s real
But those lines begin to blur
I start to lose sight of “real”
I feel eyes watching me
The voices start screaming in
my head
Vision of impending doom are
unrelenting
It gets harder to think or to
feel
It seems like it will never
end
Frantic there’s nowhere to
run to
I can’t escape it
Try to ride it out another
battle within
Feels like it gets worse each
time
Harder to come back from
It drags me down deeper
Wondering how much worse it’s
going to get
The highs the lows
This crazy ride of which
there’s no way off
All I can do is hang on
But these feelings and
thoughts are burning
Inside me hurting making me
sick
So weak feeling completely out
of control
Just want to sleep till it
ends
Trying to function normally
But I’m barely able to
function at all
Looking around at everything
Adding to the misery
Feeling so dysfunctional
Trying not see to think or
feel these things
Wishing for numbness
Sense’s over acting
Sensitivity covers me all
over
Everything seems to hurt
So overwhelming sucks the
life out of me
I want to check out
Step out of life for awhile
Let this storm pass
Watch from the side lines
Instead of being tossed
around
Sanity feels like a distant
memory
Pressure builds inside
Feels like a knife twisting
in my gut
Choking on the crazy
Try to convince myself I’m in
control
But there is no control
So discouraging I thought I got
past all this
Then I fall hard again
It’s never going to end
Always heading for a crash
I will never be any more than
this…
This will be the end of me
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