Bound
Sometimes
your words make me
Feel
like I’m not a person
Just
a waste of space
You’ve
no idea how hard I try
To
be a functional part of society
But
I can’t move forward
The
fear of failure screwing up
Holds
me here
The
terror of interacting with people
Keeps
me hidden
I
don’t want them to see my stupidity
They’ll
see it in me
I
don’t deserve to be o.k. I hear it
In
my head all the time
Its
another chain keeping me bound
I
struggle to break free
I
see the people around and
It
looks so easy for them to live
There
are times when the chains loosen
Never enough
Just
when I can start move
It
tightens and I’m bound again
I
see the disappointment in your eyes
Hear
it in your voice
I
am so scared of seeing it hearing it
I
hide
Knowing
I’ll always be the one flat on my face
Can’t
even talk on the phone
I
cringe every time it rings
I
don’t know the right things to say
I’m
bound trapped here
Scared
sad paranoid confused delusional
Angry
and alone
Dreaming
one day
I’ll
be stronger than I feel
To
break free of the chains that bind….
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