my words and how little they mean to you...it seems no one gets it

Words

you'll never get it

you read my words

but they carry no meaning for you

to you there just letters on a page

not real thoughts and feelings

you cant see it it just confuses you

makes why wonder why i can't just stop it

it's not real for you just a piece of fiction

you'll never understand

what they mean to me i write them for myself no one else

trying to process this mess in my head

but again you'll never get it

so why waist time trying to convince you-

there so much more than words....

Don’t worry about it..

You don’t even care to read the words I write

To you it’s just nonsense

This is not nonsense this is my life...on paper

Waiting for someone to look and understand

I need help here I’m drowning

I could use a hand to help pull me out

I’m clinging to life not for me...for all of you

I don’t want to be here anymore

I don’t want this anymore

I can’t leave you all behind so...

What can I do take you all with me

I have thought about it…awful

What kind of person even has a thought like that

I just want out

But fuck it…it’s just nonsense on paper…right?