Friday, August 9, 2013

sometime it's just too much

Too long
Fearful desperate held down for too long
I don’t think we were truly meant to be
We held on for so long out of fear
Just a desperate girl and stupid boy foolishly in “love”
We closed ourselves in tethered together
Not knowing where one ends and the other began
Forgetting who you are unable to think…move freely
Couldn’t move without hurting the other
So you learn to take the pain
Fall instep learn to move together
Bound by deep seeded issues fears insecurities
After all no one wants to be alone truly
Why do we accept the pain so easily
As humans we adapt to our environment
To souls bound hopelessly together
Coexisting cohabitating moving blindly ahead simply existing
Not knowing or really caring where you’re going
Having no expectations of change
You just drag your lifeless body ahead
Not caring what hell lay ahead
Ignoring the immense pain the searing heat burning pain
Getting closer to that bottomless pit of fire
Fighting to stay together at the same time
Struggling to separate…
 It continues
both of you feeling like
You’re getting the short end of the stick
It’s you who bends always giving in
While the other just keeps kicking you while your down
It’s always you who’s suffering-unloved
Unappreciated-whose feelings are disregarded,
You’re the only one trying to change
To meet the needs of the other
Always in a power struggle-you’re the one
Who always takes the dive it’s become expected
Sometimes taking a dive is less painful than standing up
Figuring its better not to struggle
Learning to take that pain so easily
You don’t really want to stay…
But you don’t know how to let go


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